Tuesday, March 29, 2005
SC in the finals!
yea man. SC bt. MG 4-1 today...so they're in the finals against RGS...ehs. u guys better play well ks...and keep our 3rd yr champion...Iris made a remark today...abt how...going back to Kallang isn't the same anymore...made me think of the past 5 yrs...how many times i've stepped into the Kallang courts...whether to train, for competition...experienced wins and losses...actually we've all come a long way...and i juz feel quite...detached...like its the younger generation now...the sec4s and sec3s this yr...bringing that whole atmosphere up...ever since i went up to A Div...i neva got to hear the loud cheering...its not how loud it sounds...but how we bond as a team...go thru thick and thin...thru the crazy trainings...etc etc...it juz doesn't feel the same in Ac anymore...though we got the same coach...practically almost the same team...i hope this yr would b memorable.e.e...
training after tt was juz crazy...yea its the first day mr tan's back with us after "quitting and coming back"...at first everyone was reluctant and stuff...but finally i guess it all juz fell back into place...seriously when i see him...i juz dun haf the heart to be angry or to be pissed or wadeva...i guess wad Madam said does make sense too..like yea he made this mistake...but look at how much he's put into us the last 5-6 yrs...
well we booked the court...and he happily used up our court time to make us do 8 sets of 20 lap court sprints...juz totally exhausted after tt...with the acsi guys grinnning outside looking at us suffer...while i heard some retarded joke my bro made to Auntie Ana...right after sprints we had games...juz damn tired...
had dinner with Fong Iris Zhen and Stella...and this afternooon b4 going to kallang...Stella was juz telling me of how God's been working in their lives...5-6yrs ago...i wun even dare to think of Iris or Zhen enjoying worship, or talking abt God...but now even his praise songs are stuck in their heads...
Stella told me how to listen to what God has to say...firstly there are 4 kinds of voices in this world...: God's, Satan's, My own, and the World's. juz block out the last three and u'll hear Him...
fruitful day?...mayb a lil. towards the spiritual side...
Juannnn [11:59 PM]
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Sunday, March 27, 2005
Easter sunday...
haha the atmosphere at SJC and COGS is so high today...considering Jesus rose frm the dead today...but no matter how high. Sarah's still as late as ever..muahaha. this time we told her 7.30am...while Gerald Yan Leen and I arranged 8pm...time of Sarah's arrival...8.15pm. haha.
went SJC for easter service after breakfast..and Kenneth came sooo late...the msg was gd...the dance was gd...the worship was gd...i tink all their singers are juz so talented lar. haha. nvm COGS has its own talents too...:) . but i like the way they bring the atmosphere up...not too traditional nor too charismatic...msg was abt the 4 responses to God...to come and see to Seek to worship and to serve....actually covers a lot of aspects in everythin we need to know already...though its easier said than done...other than those few things...met up with "old" frens frm camp...haha...gd to see everyone again...
b4 lunch the 5 of us plus Joel Pang and Caleb managed to go to the Pet Lovers Centre...to find clothes for Joel. haha. at least tehre were 2 rows of dog's clothes there. super cute. even haf cheong sams. plus there were these two extremely cute Shih Tzus pawing at each other in a cage...and this dog which smelt similar to Gerald's Stubbs. haha. i wan a doggy tooo...
Ivan then trooped down with his gang of Jesse and David to join us for lunch...which was quite yummy. but 4 bucks was ex for a bowl the size of wad Sarah's expression was " WAD! so small!" when she saw it. haha. left quite early to rush to COGS for our own prac...
seriously, i tink i've been thru this a few times to realise tt as long as u put ur faith in God...he will make ur worship gd...no matter how bad u sound...haha. we had 10 songs at hand...but we onli had an hour and half to prac...but still...i hoped everyone had fun jumping and dancing and shouting arnd. haha...its quite rare to see ppl praising so freely in YE....but it was good. :)...too bad i couldn't join Shu and the rest to jump! haha...
Kenneth's mum provided a "big spreaD" of dumplings and nuggets and wad looked like a 5kg strawberry cake...i tink everyone was full satisfied and hungry...haha both physically and spiritually. yea his b-day...Happy B-day Zhubadi. haha
realli super tired now...seldom haf such a fruitful sunday...i actually practised piano...with SCALES...my most hated part of music...managed to file everythin up...for my chem and bio...need to start studying soon...prelims are coming...argh. season's nx weeek...
while i was at the busstop few days back...i was looking at the road...and this thought came to my mind....i realised that we're so busy...we dun even notice the nitty gritty in life...we onli see the big picture...but its act. the small things tt make up the whole picture...and there are so many things u know subconciously..but i'm so busy....i juz forget abt it....until someone says it...and reminds me...i need rest....ZZZ.
"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." - Matthew 28:19-20
Juannnn [11:51 PM]
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Saturday, March 26, 2005
POP!
the week's flown by damn fast...and my internet connection's getting crappier and crappier...so i can't blog much...haha. juz normal sch and everythin... we tried to look for Mr Tan tt day while we were having free period and he had coaching in ACJC...and his attitude was juz this stupid heck care attitude...so much for 5 yrs of wadeva ship u call it...he doesn't even seem to care...is this how much we mean to him?. even if he is willing to come back now...i wonder if i'm willing to accept him. i dunno how to talk to him anymore...wad happened to the coach that i used to know...the one that i could talk to abt practically everythin under the sun...the one tt would ferry us everywhere...the one that we would hang out with for lunch and stuff after training...the one tt led us to victory yr after yr...the one tt did so much for us... well...today was good friday service...arranged to meet Sarah Teo and Ian at queenstown mrt at 10am...act. we told Sarah 9.45 haha for gd reasons...ppl who know her would know why...but look wad happened! she end up coming at 10.30. haha...wOw. service was...i duno...haf no comments...haha...sometimes i get it sometimes i dun...Sarah and i juz ended up lost...while Ian CLAIMED tt he was listening but din understand....or din hear. tts y. haha. so right after we had "lunch" b4 starting on our longest prac in my whole life for POP...but it was good...managed to complete 4 songs...while the Pro Ivan came in the evening...who helped us add a lot of gdnesss into our songs. haha. my feeet were aching after the whole thing man... then we went to Clementi Macs again...for once without Ah Pek Gerald..haha Ivan Rach Ian and Caleb the PIG. for supper-dinner...super full now at 1am...i still can feeel e Macs in my stomach.. haven done any "features" for v. long huh...i got two here today...courtesy of Sarah Teo PigTail and Caleb Chua Pighead...haha
rusty says:
me!
the wind pulled me into the hurricane says:
meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
rusty says:
me me me me me!!!-waves madly-
rusty says:
haha
rusty says:
sarah its gonna be me! in case u ppl din know...if u all need bird nest...there is some available v. easily...juz call Sarah . haha.
Juannnn [12:54 AM]
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
shake the planet...
i tink everytime i go for some christian concert...it juz revives my faith in God and stuff...how often do u get the scene of few hundred ppl praising and worshipping the same God in the same way at the same time...its this one thing tt planet shakers has managed to do...to be up close and personal with the audience...not literally, but the whole scene is juz so touching...how ppl submit themselves to God...
God juz works in awesome ways...juz yest Rox accepted Christ...and today...Zhen did too...its been a long time...she's gone for christian stuff...all the evangelistic events...but only today did she finally accept Him...:)..."Theres nth God cannot do!"...i neva been to a more calorie burning concert...haha but it was fun jumping etc etc...with the whole YE gang...
we got almost front seats! all thx to Kiasu Ah pek Gerald...who dragged the whole gang there at 4pm in the afternoon...concert started at 7pm...haha. so we had our ta paoed mostly Macs dinner in the queue sprawled across the grass patch and pavement...
hols juz pass so fast...after camp...3/4 of the march hols are gone...and 2 days of planet shakers...there goes the whole weeek. the 10 song worship for easter sounds damn fun though..:).
ran 2.4 this morning...though i din hit my target..but i improved my timing...and i juz kept thinking of wad JX and Sarah said to me yest night...haha. which was quite farnie. so i wasn't v. tired during the 3 4 5 round...and we juz had to drag ourselves to gym right after...our last gym!!! so happy...but well abt Mr Tan...i realli dunnooo.
tired...laters.
Juannnn [12:42 AM]
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Friday, March 18, 2005
free?...or troubled?
juz came back frm the planet shakers conference...it was juz awesome...more of the concert than the conference though haha...it was realli a totally diff. experience frm other FOPs i attended...they juz seemed to have the whole crowd under their control, all submitting themselves to God...dunno how to explain...well u gotta go there and experience for urself...anyways...Rox accepted Christ...and we're all v. thankful for tt...:)...welll it was realli touching...abt the 2nd or 3rd time i was touched by the holy spirit again...
troubling thing is...Mr Tan juz quit and left our squash team like tt. leaving no one with no explanation or whatsoever...season's in 2 weeks. and we're without a coach. everyone's juz in shock...i dunno wad to do..the msg juz now was abt being set free frm the prison cell we're in...but now...sigh
mayb these are juz one of the unexpected things God throws at us in life to give us trials...i'm at a loss...:(
Juannnn [11:15 PM]
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005
squash camp!
tired, sun burnt, aching, bites...but i neva felt such satisfaction esp. after training like mad for 3 days 2 nights. camp was juz in one phrase - damn fun and fufiling. haha. well the basic schedule was juz Monday frenly, training, 13 station circuit...Tues training, frenly, ghosting crunches pushups skips...Wed...a blur.
i tot i would juz die on Monday...dragging my bag to MGS at 7am in the morning...luckily i have my bro to help. stupid me got out one stop earlier. so my Bro had to carry my bag all the way fr me. we all were told by Mr Tan to expect to get trashed...esp. when my service is so trashy now...but somehow i won. so our score was 4-4...TIE. and back to sch for training...but somehow everyone was tired but happy and enthu. FOR ONCE...in a long time...i tink its the fact tt season's in less than a month...in fact 2 more weeks or so...and though winning isn't everythin...we still wanna put in our best...
Monday night's free time was both fun and "thrilling" when Shu min and i came up with this brilliant idea of going to Ting's house for dinner and nice hot shower...b4 returning to sch...so the juniors juz went on scaring us with ghost stories and crap...and after watching the FACE, Fong could hardly sleep haha.
well i awoke with bites over my neck and face...-_-. how clean can the sports medicine room's floor be right. SC frenly today...so met my juniors again...played with Kimby...and my service juz wasn't working...2-0 down...and i heard Mr Tan shout..." stop! Juan i haf no choice but to say this. if u're not gonna change the way u serve. u'll not get any better"...and rattered on somemore...but somehow it juz woke me up...subsequently he kept shouting at me to wake up. finally won 3-2...tired but happy...but i realised tt its not impossible...though thru 5 yrs plus of squash, i've been thru so many of these kinda matches...but somehow i juz lost it after Os... and i juz found how i'm its possible again. i guess its true...at tt pt in time...its no longer ur skills tt decide whether u win or lose....but more of a battle of one's mind...it juz kept me thinking of our upcoming matches...sometimes i realli dunno if i will do better hearing ppl's expectations or juz trusting myself and Him.
ghosting followed by 1000 skips with 3 sets of 30crunches 20 push ups 20 back arches din realli helpmy aching body. haha...after which i rushed to church for John's workshop...i felt i din waste my time there...u think u know tt Worship consists of certain factors...but somehow there are juz other parts tt u tend to overlook..the most minute parts.
met the girls back at holland v where they juz finished their sumptutuous Crystal Jade dinneR!!! argh...but nvm. so we went back playing bridge while waiting for the guys to finish their frenly to start our night games!. which was basically...hide and seek...quite fun...but it caused Fong a half injured ankle and me scrapped skin...-_-...
today was the fun part...everyone juz awoke damn sleepy...and we dragged ourselved to training where Mr Tan juz made us run laps to wake us up...then we had frenly with the guys... Yuan Hao was juz...grr. nth to say. haha i run left he play right i run right he play left. and it seems there nth he can't reach lars...after lunch we had captain's ball...J2s against J1s...haha...under the super hot sun...where mich juz became slacker. haha somehow she got tt nickname. hot and tired....but i guess our team is kinda more bonded. somewhat. had goal setting afterward...where we realli thought abt stuff...even the silver seems so far away. but this camp realli did us a whole lotta good.
went up to the pool earlier than the guys...trying to get on those funny floats Mdm made us bring up for some relay after wards with the guys...seriously i neva seen Mdm this kind and nice to us...in fact we haven even got punished at all during camp. so we had tt relay...which was quite retarded...with all of us desperately clinging on the floats trying to get across to the other side ASAP. haha
the real fun came at water polo. its juz a once a yr sorta thing. and its quite sad thinking tt this is my last chance to play water polo with my squash team. haha. Piggy was juz practically being a pain. kept irritating me. and after getting pinched. he tries to splash water in my face when i'm wearing goggles so he can't see instead. and he starts calling me childish -_-. then it was off to the showers and Spizza!. where we paid 175 bucks...for 7 pizzas +++...and the guys juz said sth like " HEy. lets go to BK for our main course after this". so apparently Spizza was juz their expensive appetiser.
i'm juz dead beat now... to think theres still music at 7.45am tml...sigh...Zzz
Juannnn [11:32 PM]
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
training...more training
past few days juz passed in a whirl...all i can rem. is squash and more squash...though it was onli twice training once gym...my whole body's aching like mad lar...the fixtures are out...i guess tts wad pushing us to work harder...to think last time in SC we had no worry...and this is our last yr...if we are gonna win anythin. its our last chance. sigh
thurs met Auntie Kar Foon and Paul for lunch...b4 tt sch ended at 12.30...but vice principal juz refused to let my class out...till 1.10 so we camped at the steps near the gate...looking super retarded.but somehow we ran out when the guard was "supposedly" arranging cones. haha...the fish ball mee at queenstown is damn nice lar...haha too full to down a cup of coffee at Cafe Galilee afterward. realised tt Auntie Kar Foon's a very easy person to talk to and share ur views and stuff. she seems to know wad u're thinking...and stuff...but yea. kinda felt a sense of peace after talking to her...
torture camp's in one day...hopefully it'll be fun as well...sounds like squash whole day round...i wanna go for John's worship "workshop" thingy on tues though...got to talk to him on Thurs as well though...asked him why he decided to go to theological college...he already has a business degree and probably a masters i think...but he said it was God's calling...like how each of us are made for a purpose...wondering wads mine...i'm still searching.
Juannnn [1:17 AM]
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
music...
tuesdays are damn slack now..tt i haf no chinese...end at 1.10...minus the fact tt theres double PE at 3.10...which juz simply doesn't make sense. went to church...to get my cip letter...and since Auntie Kar Foon had a last min. meeting i ended up drumming in the music room for the nx 1 half hours...i tink its quite a gd way to destress...
and i juz realised today again tt i realli love music a lot..in a way...though i hate to practise...i can't imagine not being able to play it...how music alone and bring tears, smiles, peace, comfort...etc. the amazing thing is...its juz 7 different notes...with different pitches...and juz plain words...lyrics...
brings me back to wad i heard this morning frm some ppl. which kinda got on my nerves...i mean u can talk abt it privately. but do u haf to openly proclaim to the whole world tt u think theres onli a thin line between satanic worship and christian worship?. and how u think tt Hillsongs video playing on the projector this morning looked like a satanic worship. plus the horrendous stuff u write in ur blog abt chapel being some drama set up for u and ur clan to perform some disgusting acts...
well...at least i THINK i did sth quite fruitful today...i practised my piano. haha. like how often do u hear tt...if i hadn't met you...i think my grade 8 exam would juz be in total jeopardy frm the start...but this practise is still not enuff...sigh. i guess i finally met someone tt revived my interest and passion for music...but sadly its not to b...
Juannnn [11:58 PM]
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Monday, March 07, 2005
juz thoughts...
days after Term exam pass fast...gave myself one weeek to "enjoy" but it seems like i can't get enuff of it...got all my results back...a lot of IFs and BUTs...a lot of unexpected results....but by God's grace...i still passed my terms. haha...juz reminded me of SC's squash slogan for one yr...can't rem. the full thing...sth like no Ifs Buts or Mayb...juz do it...
the week during terms juz passed in a blur...i vaguely rem. wad happened...but everytime i get my results...whether gd or bad in my standards or other people's standards...i realise how God has beeen working in my life...it may seeem like i juz scraped thru yet another exam...but somehow it always leads me somewhere...somewhere not of suffering but somewhere that i get to learn and grow in Him...there are happy times and sad times...but these are inevitable...
J3s did the best in AC's history...but whether we can keep up with their results is another issue.
perhaps meeting auntie Kar Foon tml might enlighten me further. haha...its late...zzz.
Juannnn [11:55 PM]
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
results...
today's basically damn slack AGAIN...argh. its the 4 periods day...went out with XH and Chris to JP after..watching Hitch...and EATING...AGAIN. i tink sch's like eating class nowadays...sigh.
wel...tml's time for my 'AO' Chinese and PW results...plus Chem SPA...though no lessons. i tink i'll suffer frm heart attack. haha. sometimes i wonder why i regret not studying hard enuff onli after taking the paper...sometimes b4 an exam...or even during...i tell myself...the paper's not over yet...everythin's in ur hands for now...after this time...u can't change anythin else and ur fate is sealed...
once memories are there...its realli hard to forget...esp. if 99.9% of em' are happy ones...they may seeem trivial at tt point in time...but now tt its somewhat "over"...u think back and realise these are the small things tt make up the whole big picture u haf of the memories...
Juannnn [11:03 PM]
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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
combined founders day...
yest was a pretty slack day...all lessons ending at 11.10...and Rama ending our 1 hr 20 min lec in 15 mins...haha record of the yr man. well. it was quite boring...long wait and all...i tink the sch IS getting smarter...they locked up all possible "escape" routes....and had teachers at every nook and corner to escort us up the bus. haha. and on reaching the stadium we were warned tt once in..no out. wow.
well the scene at the indoor stadium was quite amusing...i neva knew pri sch BOYS had HIGH PITCHED voices. Amanda can beat u leh! hah. and they were sooo super enthu.
host: ok i need some volunteers...for a drama later on...
*pri sch kids all run out like mad*
host: okok...enuff enuff....tts it...
*still more ppl swarming*
host: ok...when u hear the woman scream...scream as well fro 3 secs and drop dead . ok?
*screams*
*one boy drops dead*...rest looks on blurly. and slowly...drop dead one by one...
well...the above entertained us for quite a while...then the host sent hude balloons thru the audience...where the guys juz had fun trying to burst them...with crazy independent and barker guys throwing their books as we did the "AC wave".
and tts the "real" drama...haha. i got bored...and the events after...abt my BROTHER. grr.
made me go to East entrance to find him saying he buying food...when i wanted food in the North entrance coz i hadn't eaten since 10am...so i walked all the way there with XH and Shivali...and turned out...there weren't any food stores...
nx...he comlplain lazy. say wanna take cab...so ok. we go arnd looking for a cab..when he meets his fren...and he juz turned to me and say. eh. my fren sending me home. BYE BYE. like wth. XH and Shivali's faces were like HUH?. lidat?...
well...three of us walked to Kallang mrt after...and XH and i were so thankful for the icecream uncle. hahaha. and on the mrt...suddenly i looked up and saw my neighbour Brandon...with...a girl. haha. and suddenly at buona vista...i look behind him...and guess wad. i saw . my MUM. and b4 tt i was juz telling her how her PRECIOUS son left her daughter stranded in Kallang...and she said...eh wad PRECIOUS son...dun say until lidat lar...my PRECIOUS son left my PRECIOUS daughter also wad. so i end up getting a lift frm my Dad anyway. haha. while my bro got a "lecture" at home...abt "no wonder ur sister so irritated with u la!". :p...hee.
today's juz a rubbishy slack day AGAIN. i seem to be slacking too much after exams again...this is no gd!. on the way home with XH and Vic and i met Fong and Zhen who were doing CIP...so i ended up going to Jurong with them folding phamplets and distributing them to blocks abt 20 min walk away! so super tired after tt...hahaha...k better do chem...
Juannnn [11:07 PM]
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
forgot wad i wanna say
had a lot to say juz now...but somehow my mind's a blank now...
well...got caught by TT Lawrence Ang AGAIN for my skirt...i wonder wads HIS problem...my skirt is seriously legal lars...it was until my knees already! but everytime he sees me he juz calls me over and warns me.-_-...
tml's combine founders day...with ACSI ACSB ACJS ACS pri ACS international....my mum claims ACJC is hiring buses to ferry us there coz they know we confirm pon sch if they give us a day off....haha...
wells...din go for training today...since my heel was hurting plus i tink i pulled e muscle behind my knee...how i did tt? i wonder too. haha now plus four nice big bruises on my legs. arGH. so went orchard with Chris and Xiaohui...more of an eating trip more than anythin. this is bad...haha.
to JOEL PANG: u PIG!. haha Ken did press the refresh button so many times wad! tts y he kept complaining my tagboard din work. hahaha. and u guys are soo mean to Wei Ying lars. she sit there quiet quiet wan go hide her slippers in the dustbin. all guys somemore. TSK.
gotta sleeep now...b4 i become a walking zombie...zzz
Juannnn [12:04 AM]
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